A couple nights ago Linda and I decided to grab a rare clear spring night and look at the quarter moon. We ran the video image from the scope to the living room and sat a few feet apart. She played solitaire and watched the scene on the monitor. I sketched while some folks on Night Skies Network joined the sketch lesson and gave it a try, too. The target was Aristoteles–a beautiful double-walled crater that is well known. We talked and chattered during the eveing, but there was a looming issue the next two days for Linda. It was hard not to think about it. Here is the sketch before the rest of the story:
Linda had the CT scans the next day; we met with the doctor yesterday. So how do you treat life when your partner gets news that affirms previous serious estimates that challenge life expectancy? Yes, the tumors are smaller…some of them. But they are not gone and there are many of them. The doctor was pleasant but blunt: ‘we want to maintain quality of life and balance that with medicine.’ No one is aiming for a cure. When the stage is this high and the disease is this advanced, they don’t have a solution.
Our faith is alive and well so we are able to walk forward. We pray for a miracle but realize that He also does not keep us from dying. And, part of this fallen world is that we live with disease. Usually, as one friend said, we don’t think about it until it’s real close to home. We have thought about it often since we have walked for two decades through 5 cancers. It’s still very sobering when you hear a serious prognostication
So tonight we sat in the observing area, had something nice to drink, and talked. It was warm with a light breeze. We watched the color change at sunset while the moon got brighter in the high eastern sky. We noticed and talked about the spring flowers and the birds and His hand in it all. We saw this beautiful curve of cirrus that was lighted by the setting sun and got the picture below.
Walking with Him in contrary circumstances with peace in the heart also shows His hand at work. Some days are harder, but they, too, show His hand at work, although sometimes we have to get past a couple of days and look back to see it. This evening was like that. There was a bit of tension during the last two days, but today we continued to pack things to send to friends in need in Uganda and the Philippines. Tomorrow we will see some other friends, some of whom are praying for Linda. Like us, they know life is brief and knowing the Saviour of our souls means everything. A bump in the road like cancer just makes it a bit more meaningful and underlines the shortness of our time–time we often take for granted.
It is a good evening to give thanks. It is an even better evening to acknowlege our Lord, giving thanks in all circumstances. Sounds like a scripture, doesn’t it? Look it up. 1 Thessalonians 5:18